What's Going On
For probably the last 9 months to a year I have been trying to find the elusive balance between everything going on in my life. I was close but never completely had it down. Over the past few months I think I have finally found the formula that works for me & it has been quite successful.
Aside from initial shyness, I am a very forward person. This isn’t all bad but I tended to try to influence things & worried about things beyond my locus of control. I would get all stressed out over things I had no control over. After thinking about it for a while, I just decided to quit worrying about all the extracurricular stiff & just worry about my education & the things on my own plate. I can’t tell you how effective it has been.
I really don’t stress over anything anymore. Tests, papers, & grades are something I just don’t worry about. What I focus on is what I can do to get the most out of my education. Like tests, I study more than ever, & hope to well, but really who vies a crap if you get a bad grade? There is always another exam. My GPA is around a 3.25 right now & I am happy with that. I am sure it could be considerably higher than that, but could I say I enjoyed the experience. Papers are kind of the same way. I am a pretty decent writer, & just apply what I know. The key is writing the paper when you are inspired, not just when it is necessary. There are these bursts of creative energy I get & they drive me. My best stuff is written during these. I have never gotten below a B on a written assignment so I just go into it knowing I have a B locked, anything above that is an A.
It even applies to personal relationships. There is advice & there is pressure. I was the latter all too often. I now say my peace & let it at that.
Class this semester is especially awesome. In addition to my Big Brother Big Sister child Jason, I am now partnered with a little girl in 1 of my classes. We travel to Aldo Leopold Elem every Tuesday in a class of mine & today I was paired up with a 5th grader named Tasha. Last year I got to watch the personal progress of Jason as I worked with him. It is going to be fun to see a different sort of progress from Tasha as we are doing more educationally based things. I’ll have another Blog on this experience so I’ll cut it off here.
A lot has been made of drama. Anyone that has ever worked at a Pig knows how much of it there is to go around. I found the key is to just stand back & watch. At all costs don’t get caught in it no matter how hard people try to drag you in. Although I fell out of graces with the Pig Gods over the summer, like all things, it is all about momentum. For quite a while I have considered getting a new job, but the pay coupled with the flexibility is just unparalleled. There is also the fact that when it comes down to it, when the chips are on the table, I am the best of the best. Why waste something you are really good at?
Diverging into a completely different subject, I am self-proclaiming myself a dating guru. Looking back, it started in the spring or early summer. At least 2-3 times a week I get asked for serious dating advice. Through these experiences I have realized just how much knowledge on dating I have accumulated. In fact, I pulled my Dating Blogs from the spring all together. They are way too valuable & I am going to publish them & make ching for myself. As funny as my Women Are Whores Blah Blah routine was, the truth is that I had far greater knowledge to bestow. I know, I know, I may just be arrogant here but I mean this sincerely. You put me up against any guy & I’ll find a way to beat him 9 times out of 10. I said it drunk earlier this summer & I meant it. It isn’t that I am that good, it is that I am really good & sincere with what I say & do. Dating is all in the little things. I am as guilty as the next guy for fucking up stupid things in dating, & have paid for them, but ego is all about what you have done up until a minute ago. It is about what you are going to do & that lies in your hands.
Enough on dating, now to the subject drinking. After last summer I craved drinking. Lately I have cut back again. It isn’t that I don’t enjoy it anymore, it is more that I don’t make time to do it. I like going out to bars, parties, or whatever, my social anxiety really is a nonexistent issue now. It is just that I don’t make it a priority. I am still going to tear it up once & a while, just keep me away fro the Yager for god’s sake.
Finally, & I know I have written about it before, success is all about a positive attitude. I used to be extremely negative, it just drains you. Instead of looking at what has happened, look at what can happen. Opportunities are created & when they create themselves, take them. Your biggest accomplishments are often your biggest risks.
My next Blog will probably be on the great debate between pirates & ninjas, which is better. I might hit up the Chevelle concert on Monday also so that could be the inspiration for another entry, I’ll have it posted in my profile. Until then, CYA when I CYA!
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Twice the Speed of Life
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“Stand Back Up”
