Death
I started this Blog a few weeks ago when I found out that a sister of a good friend of mine has cancer. If Heaven came on the radio last night & I decided to finish it. Mortality is a weird thing to face at a young age. I think it is pretty clear in my earlier Blogs that death isn’t something really new to me. Two really good friends, Josh & Clarence, have died in the past few years. Death is something I don’t really fear. I used to have this obsession with death. It wasn’t that I wanted to die or anything. It just intrigued me, my mortality. Maybe it was something I was just forced to confront at a young age. It is one thing when a grandparent dies, it is a whole different thing when someone your own age dies. That just isn’t supposed to happen.
When I was 3 or 4, my mom was explaining to me the whole heaven hell thing. I bust out, “Well if we have to be good to go to heaven, then why don’t we just kill ourselves now & just go there.” Deep thoughts from a toddler? Maybe I just was whacked in the head from way back then. In any event, it makes for a good story from my mom.
Whenever someone young dies, someone inevitably says carpe diem, live like your dying. Although it is cliché, it is also valid. Are you doing everything you can? Would you have any regrets? I think everyone would. There are always friendships you wish you had back. There are always things you wish you hadn’t said. I think it is important in life to take time every week to, even in the smallest way, right one of these wrongs.
Anyway, I think this Blog became more of an excuse just to get this song onto here. I didn’t like it the 1st time I heard it, but it has grown on me. Andy Griggs as an artist has grown on me. Another good song is She Thinks She Needs Me, download.
Andy Griggs: If Heaven
If Heaven was an hour, it would be twilight
When the fireflies start their dancin' on the lawn
And supper's on the stove, and Mama's laughin'
And everybody's workin' day is done
If Heaven was a town it would be my town
Oh, on a summer day in 1985
& everything I wanted was out there waitin'
& everyone I love was still alive
[chorus]
Don't cry a tear for me now, baby
There comes a time we all must say goodbye
& if that's what Heaven's made of
You know I, I ain't afraid to die
If Heaven was a pie it would be cherry
So cool and sweet and heavy on the tongue
& just one bite would satisfy your hunger
& there'd always be enough for everyone
If Heaven was a train it sure would be a fast one
That could take this weary traveler around the bend
If Heaven was a tear it'd be my last one
& you'd be in my arms again
[chorus]
Dont cry a tear for me now, baby
There comes a time we all must say goodbye
& if that's what Heaven's made of
You know I, I ain't afraid to di
Yeah if that's what Heaven's made of
You know I, I aint afraid to die
